aehilmoss

Things that was obvious:
She takes that extra step to understand what others' point of views are.
She takes that extra extra step to sympathize with that point of view.
She does not take sides but listens closely to both sides' story before drawing a conclusion.
She goes beyond whats required and tries to better understand her own kind, but takes an even further step to also understand my kind.
She has good people skills obviously.
She is liked by all, loved by many, admired by much, adored by lots, desired by some too.
She is pretty at times, cute at times, adorable at times and lovely most of the time.
She is smart, intelligent, talented and is filled with wisdom from above.
She is THE friend that you would share your life with, the stories, the feelings, the ambitions, the visions, the laughter, the tears, the joy, the smiles, the hugs, the nights, the days, the stars, the clouds, the rain, the sun, the experience, the memories, the love.
She s passion driven, love motivated, and grace empowered.

She loves God above all.

Things that I predict, assume, have a hunch on
- It is highly probable that she will meet a guy, that will appear nice and caring at first...the knight in shinning armor will take its mask of after he manages to convince her to be his. She would have invested heaps of love and emotion on him only to realize he is a jerk behind that mask. Only to feel the pain and suffering but refusing to give up on him because of the investment made.
[I do feel sorry for her if this was to happen]

- She doesn't like to disappoint others, making it a soft spot that vultures will abuse her for.

- She doesn't like to unfair to anyone, making it seem that she is fond of you, unintentionally sends the wrong message.
[Dangerously destructive]

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I still do love her....but it just seem impossible.....at least for now...
the distance
the unfamiliarity
the uncertainty of both our future...
the need for me to mature further in my walk...
the need to go through more together....

Should I still dream about her?
I know I cant stop thinking about her...
but...
sigh...
what am I to do with these feelings?

I know...my place

I know who am I...
I know where I am suppose to be...
I know why I am to be there...
...
I know...
My place in this....

To the back of the line I was told to go...
Waiting in line was what I did...
When I was in front it felt wrong...
...
I know...
I am suppose to be at the end of the line...

In their footsteps I followed...
Making sure that they are not the last but I am...
Understanding the role I hold in this...
...
I know...
This is the way it should be...

At times I am called to be a leader...
As much as that happens, I am to be a follower any other time...
A task is a task, once done, its over...
...
I know...
The cycle is distorted...

You and your trust

To fail..does it mean i have lost it all?
To pass..does it mean it was worth it?
To succeed..does it mean i have gain something?

I would rather fail than to lose you..
If the challenge was set by you..I'd make sure i passed it..
Actually..i would succeed..simply becoz all i want is you and your trust..

This is Me

To hear, does it mean I am eavesdroping?
To see, does it mean I am stalking?
To say, does it mean I am gossiping?

I will never turn my back on you,
Not even when you turn yours on me

But each time you do,
My heart chokes itself and ask
Is it really worth it?
But I'll reply with a definite
Yes!

May God give me the strength
To sustain and be triumph
With the promises I make.

Some will say this is love
Some will say this is commitment
Some will say this is true friendship
Some will say this is just stupid
But I say...this is Me

Change

Each time time passes..
I change..

Each time I regret..
I change..

Each time you move..
I change..

Each time they assume..
I change..

But is all these the change I need?
Who knows?
I guess I'll just..
Change..

Yet to be..

The love I have for you is
yet to be fully developed..
yet to be fully matured..
yet to be fully grown..

There is however..
A hint of progress..
but then again its progress is shackled
by distance..
by time..
by familiarity..
by commitments..

Will you still be there for me if i told you I love you but we can't be together?

The wait..
the longing..
the life..
oh the life..
*deep sigh*